，最快更新傲慢与偏见最新章节！She perfectly remembered everything that had passedconversation between wickham and herself,in their first 's.manyhis expressions were still freshhe was now struck with the improprietysuch municationsa stranger, and wonderedhad escapedsaw the indelicacyputting himself forwardhe had done,and the inconsistencyhis professions withremembered thathad boastedhavingfearseeing mr.darcy—that mr.darcy might leave the country,but thatshould stand his ground;yethad avoided theherfield ball the very nex remembered also that,till theherfield family had quitted the country,he had told his storyno one but herself;but that after their removalhad been everywhere discussed;thathad thenreserves,scruplessinking mr. darcy's character, thoughhad assured her that respect for the father would always prevent his exposing the son.
How differently did everything now appearwhichwas concerned!His attentionsmiss King were now the consequenceviews solely and hatefully mercenary;and the mediocrityher fortune provedlonger the moderationhis wishes, but his eagernessgrasehaviourherself could now have hadtolerable motive;he had either been deceived with regardher fortune,had been gratifying his vanityencouraging the preference which she believed she had most incautiousl lingering strugglehis favour grew fainter and fainter; andfarther justificationmr. darcy, she could not but allow that mr. Bingley, when questionedJane, had long ago asserted his blamelessnessthe affair; that proud and repulsivewere his manners, she had never,the whole coursetheir acquaintance—an acquaintance which had latterly brought them much together, and given heortintimacy with his ways—seen anything that betrayed himbe unprincipledunjust—anything that spoke himirreligiousimmoral habits;that among his own connectionswas esteemed and valued—that even wickham had allowed him merita brother,and that she had often heard him speakaffectionatelyhis sisterto prove him capablesome amiable feeling;that had his actions been what mr.wickham represented them,grosiolationeverything right could hardly have been concealed from the world;and that friendship betweeerson capableit, and suchamiable manmr. Bingley, was inprehensible.
She grew absolutely ashameeither darcy nor wickham could she think without feeling she had been blind, partial,prejudiced,absurd.
“How despicably I have acted!”she cried;“I,who have prided myselfmy discernment! I, who have valued myselfmy abilities!who have often disdained the generous candourmy sister, and gratifiedvanityuselessblameable mistrust! How humiliatingthis discovery!Yet, how jusumiliation! Had I beenlove,I could not have been more wretchedly blind! But vanity,not love,has beeith the preferenceone, and offendedthe neglectthe other,the very beginningour acquaintance,I have courted prepossession and ignorance,and driven reason away,where either wer this moment I never knew myself.”
From herselfJane—from Jao Bingley,her thoughts werea line which soon broughther recollection that mr.darcy's explanation there had appeared very insufficient,and she reaifferent was the effecta secon could she deny that credithis assertionsone instance,which she had been obligedgivethe other?He declared himselfbe totally unsuspiciousher sister's attachment;and she could not help remembering what Charlotte's opinion had alway could she deny the justicehis deioelt that Jane's feelings,though fervent,were little displayed,and that there waonstant placencyher air and manner not often united with great sensibility.
when she camethat partthe letterwhich her family were mentionedtermssuch mortifying, yet merited reproach,her senseshamejusticethe charge struck her too forcibly for denial,and the circumstanceswhichparticularly alludedhaving passedtheherfield ball, andconfirming all his first disapprobation, could not have madtronger impressionhis mind thanhers.
The plimentherself and her sister wassoothed, butcould not console her for the contempt which had thus been self-attractedthe resther family;andshe considered that Jane's disappointment hadfact been the workher nearest relations,and reflected how materially the creditboth musthurtsuch improprietyconduct, she felt depressed beyond anything she had ever known before.
After wandering along the lane for two hours, giving wayevery varietythought—re-considering events, determining probabilities, and reconciling herself,wellshe could,a changesudden andimportant, fatigue, anecollectionher long absence, made herlength return home; and she entered the house with the wishappearing cheerfulusual, and the resolutionrepressing such reflectionsmust make her unfit for conversation.
She was immediately told that the two gentlemen from Rosings had each called during her absence;mr.darcy,only foew minutes,take leave—but that Colonel Fitzwilliam had been sitting with themleasthour, hoping for her return, and almost resolvingwalk after her till she coulould but just affect concernmissing him;she really rejoicedit. Colonel Fitzwilliam waslongerobject; she could think onlyher letter.